Ella70's Blog

My Birthday

ella70 — Tue, 06 Jul 2010 08:45:24 +0000

wish you were here,
wish I was there,

I love you,

I miss you,

Wish I could see you.

wish u could give me a kiss,
wish u could give me a hug,

I wish u could hold me all snug.

But u are not here.

Nothing special..

Do not u know..it is one of my dream in this year..

And i have told u so many times before…

and i see

i can understand..u have something that more important than me.

I see..

It has been 2 years

ella70 — Wed, 23 Jun 2010 08:25:07 +0000

it has been long enough not writing here.

It has quite a lot matter also that happened in my life.

2 year

That moment was a good early life, after brother graduated.

He supported me always. My spirit never last.

But fallen down later. I really could not reach my dream.

Then, i begun my bad life.

Lord, forgive me. It is me who have left You during 2 years.

I know You will not fulminate to me. I know that.

But it’s really painful. I have faced many problems.

“2010″ is the ghastliest year in my life history. Really..

My LORD,, hear me please…

In this time i just need something that can make me return to You.

Something that can discharge me from enchaining which have bound me during 2 years.

I can stay hitherto because the prayer of my mom, sister, and whoever love me.

Lord, am i still in your heart???

Does the picturesqueness which have planned by You still available for me?

Forgive me myLord…

Help me..

Nobody knows what an illness i tied during the time..

My Jesus,, my Lord.. If i can

Let me be with U..

Love

ella70 — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 11:30:46 +0000

DOXA TO THEO PANTON HENEKEN

ella70 — Sat, 15 Nov 2008 10:01:17 +0000

Pagi hari Dia menungguku bangun tuk mendengarkanku mengucapkan selamat pagi, namun ternyata, aku terlalu sibuk dengan dunia…

Siang hari, Dia masih menungguku menunggu sapaanku, di sela2 kesibukanku.. namun, aku pun masih terlalu sibuk dengan pekerjaan, ataupun bermain. bahkan saat makan siang pun..aku melupakan Dia

Sore hari, Dia terus menungguku..
sebuah ucapan selamat sore setelah semua kesibukanku selesai.

tapi..aku
pun masih sibuk dengan teman teman..atau dengan keluarga..

Malam hari
Dia masih terus menungguku.. mengucapkan salam menjelang aku tidur..
tetap saja..aku terlalu sibuk mengurusi kantuk dan lelahku..hingga tak
sedikitpun aku berkata-kata padaNya.

Dari matahari terbit hingga kembali terbit..

Dia terus menungguku ,, karna kasihNya yg tak terbatas,,

Dia terus menantiku,,

Hanya untuk sebuah kata “terima kasih Bapa,” atau “aku bahagia Bapa,”

hari demi hari,,bulan demi bulan,,tahun demi tahun,,

“Apakah sungguh aku terlalu sibuk hingga tak pernah punya
waktu untukNya?

Dia yang sekalipun tak pernah melupakanku.

Dia yang sekalipun tak pernah meninggalkanku, walau seluruh dunia membenciku..

Sungguhkah aku sesibuk itu hingga tak punya waktu untuk Dia?

Sungguhkah?”